New and Improved Weigh in Wednesday

So after some thought I have decided to start fresh with my Wednesday weigh ins. I am not discounting the 21lbs I have already lost, this is a big achievement, however it is a new year and I am starting a new non smoking phase of my life so it seems like a good time to wipe the board clean and start a new. Just a few notes for those of you who are reading I am no longer going to covert my stones into a total pound weight. There are 14lbs to a stone if you want to convert but I am trying to embrace my British Imperial lifestyle and to be honest it was just a lot of numbers that got jumbled in my head. I am starting with the weight that I weighed when I quit smoking almost three weeks ago and working forward from there.


Weight at date of quitting 12st 4lb
1st Weigh in 12st 5lb
2nd Weigh in 12st 4.5lb


Okay before anyone says it I know that was a whole lot of melodrama last week over one pound. All I can say is that at the moment I was hanging onto the cliff over the gaping hole of non smoking by only my finger nails I had nothing else to give. This is not an excuse it is just how it was. I think I have a full grip on the cliff now and am working up the strength to start pulling myself up. Everyday is a little easier, I am not dumb enough to think there might not be some weight gain in the immediate future the facts are that my metabolism is working against me at the moment, I am getting over it. So there is none of my planning my only goal is to keep moving forward, not going to say I want to loose X amount by the end of February because I don’t quite understand the new rules of the game yet. All my plans from yesterday are still going ahead and you can watch the journey good or bad or both as it happens.

Pitty Party is OVER

Yup that’s right, I reread my post from yesterday and the last few weeks and man I am a downer. So it is all over. Weigh in Wednesdays are back I will post the result later tonight. I fore warn you it is not pretty, weight is being gained, I am trying my hardest to keep on track and for the most part I have. I have even upped my exercise, I have however learned post quitting that your metabolism actually drops when you stop smoking. I am assured that in a few weeks it will pick back up so we shall see. I being forever optimistic thought I could buck the trend and loose weight at the same time, I was sadly mistaken. I am joining a gym this weekend as well even though I have doubled the amount of walking I am doing I don’t think it is enough so the plan is too keep the walking at the level I have worked up to as well as joining 3 one hour aerobics sessions a week. I may still gain weight but I am not going down with out a fight! The final stage of my plan is to get back to writing down everything I eat. I had gotten lazy at this because I knew most of the point values for things and could figure it in my head and it worked I was loosing weight. Now I need to figure out if I am putting things in my mouth that I am not accounting for or if I need to cut the amount of food I am eating. I will win, I have won before the rules may have changed but the game is still the same. Watch out world.

Nothing to say

Sorry guys I have nothing to say. Nothing you want to hear about anyways. I am pretty full of self pity and that is just boring. I lowered the patch dosage I was on Sunday at the suggestion of my pharmacist. I was doing so great blah blah blah I was strong enough to do it blah blah blah. The world ended for four hours on Sunday and then I was back to my self pitting self.

I don't really have the urge to smoke, I don't think about it that often. Just like I would never buy a bar of chocolate I would never consider buying a pack of smokes. Everyone at work is so amazed at how calm and relaxed I seem blah blah blah. They just don't realize that I censor and edit every word that comes out of my mouth. Some poor unlucky bastard who will have done nothing wrong is going to get the full wrath of my fury one day just because. I feel like the Incredible Hulk, don't piss me off or I will turn into something very nasty, ugly and green.

My sense of smell has come back, not sure this is a good thing most smells irritated me, blah blah blah.

Now I am going to go find my rock and crawl back under it, with any luck in a few weeks I will be back to my somewhat happier self.

Forgotten Birthdays

Who would have thought that such a ugly little fur ball would have grown into such and ugly kitty. Hemi celebrated his 1st birthday on the 15th of January while I want to busy crawling in a whole and dying. Luckily Mr Y in E was on hand to dish out the small tin of tuna.

Happy Birthday Mr. Y in E

Bet your wishing you had not scanned all the pictures onto the computer now! Happy Birthday sweetheart.

WOW

I have been stuck on this story all day since I read it on the train to work. I am not saying three year olds are not clever but it take a special kind of lack of parenting skills to allow this.

Adventures in Leigh on Sea

Favorite Pub in the world, the outside pictures don't do it justice and it was too packed inside to get pictures to show you how cute it is. The floors are all uneven and there are little seat shoved in the corner with great views out to the Estuary.

Tide was out when we were walking there and I love the river that runs through the sand. It was too dark to get good pictures of when tide came in but I love watching the water lap against the wall.

There is something so poetic about the boats being "stuck" at low tide, literally fish out of water.