WOW

I have been stuck on this story all day since I read it on the train to work. I am not saying three year olds are not clever but it take a special kind of lack of parenting skills to allow this.

Adventures in Leigh on Sea

Favorite Pub in the world, the outside pictures don't do it justice and it was too packed inside to get pictures to show you how cute it is. The floors are all uneven and there are little seat shoved in the corner with great views out to the Estuary.

Tide was out when we were walking there and I love the river that runs through the sand. It was too dark to get good pictures of when tide came in but I love watching the water lap against the wall.

There is something so poetic about the boats being "stuck" at low tide, literally fish out of water.

Weigh in Wednesday

So after much thought I am taking a break from weigh in Wednesdays for a few weeks. As much as my rational brain knows that it is just a fact of life that I am going to gain a little weight while I am quiting I am struggling too much to share this part of my journey publicly. I have shed my tears and am hoping that by taking the pressure off to post my weights where everyone in the world can see I will be able to come to terms with how this will affect my weight loss journey.

Everything else is the same, I am still going to Weight Watches meetings and I am still walking and taking every chance I can get to bump up the amount of walking I am doing. I am hoping in a few weeks I will be back to posting my weights. Thank you all for your support.

Slowley it is getting easier

I grabbed my umbrella yesterday morning to try and protect myself from the down pour. It was useless. But as I opened the best umbrella I had ever owned I remembered where it had come from. It had been acquired from my previous work place, I did not steal it out right, I borrowed it one evening when I was without an umbrella and the weather called for one. Some how it never went back and then my employment there no longer was.

The umbrella is fabulous, the job was anything but. As I pressed the button and the umbrella opened I thought back to this time last year when I was at above mentioned non fabulous job. My life was hell there was no other way to put it. I hated my job and that hate consumed every moment of my waking hour. Every time the train ran late it was because of my job. I didn't have enough money to buy a pot to piss in, it was my jobs fault. The weather sucked well you get the idea. I was even angrier and more bitter than now if that can be imagined.

As my umbrella popped up I thought heck giving up smoking is a lot easier than going through that crap again.

Sometiems life is good sometimes life is not

So it was a good and bad and good and bad weekend. Went to the Pharmacist for my breathalyzer and spoke to them about my need for my morning ciggy. She says if this is the only ciggy I am needing that I am doing really good. She also thinks if I can cut it out this week that she can drop me down to the second level patch this coming Saturday. I don't know how I am feeling about this. I have not had a morning ciggy since Wednesday morning and the last ciggy I had was on Saturday night and I was quite disgusted at myself for having it, I just happened to find a box with one ciggy left while I was cleaning up some stuff and while I knew I should just break it and throw it away it got the better of me in the long run. Hopefully this will be the week of no ciggies and I will feel confident to lower my patch.

Another disappointment at the moment is my weight. Despite stepping up my walking routine and getting in double the miles I normal get I have managed to gain a pound since weigh in. I still have three days to loose it and weekends are definitely the time I tend to over eat so hopefully I can get back on the right track before my Wednesday weigh in.

I knew there was a good chance I would gain weight when I stoped smoking and it was a hurdle I would have to overcome, I had just truly hoped that buy stepping up my walking it could be avoided. I am trying not to dwell on it and not to get so disappointed that I let my good eating habits go by the wayside.

On the good side Mr. Y in E and I enjoyed a nice 6 mile stroll to the next coastal town on Saturday. I got some great pictures and will try to post them soon.

I also realized that once I got myself out of the house I really enjoyed the walking the hardest part was getting going. I walked 1.5 miles each way to join hubby for a drink at his favorite pub yesterday. Having the pedometer makes me want to push myself to walk farther. I have already made plans to change my morning routine so I can get an earlier train and get off the tube a stop early and add even more walking to my day. I am so ready for more daylight in the evening so I can get more walking in during the week.

Thanks for listening to my pity party, hopefully it will get merrier soon.

Weigh in Wednesdays

Had a happy morning today when I showed up for my weigh in and was down 3.5lbs. Only one more Christmas pound to loose. This puts me right on track to have the Christmas weight off by the end of January. I am hoping I can buck the odds and keep losing while I am in the process of giving up smoking.



On the smoking front during the day I do really good and don't even really notice I have given up. Evenings are harder and I struggle. I have picked up some fruit pastilles from my WW meeting and am hoping that I can tell myself that popping one of those in my mouth is just as enjoyable as having a ciggy. The one ciggy I can not seem to give up is the first of the morning and as much as I told myself I did not need one this morning and delayed it by about 15 min in the end I gave in. I would happily kill cute puppies to have this ciggy in the morning. Oh well down to one a day from around 15, need to look at the positive. Tomorrow hopefully be the day of no ciggies.

Check back on goals

So just over a week ago I posted some goals to accomplish this week so I thought I would have a look and let you know where I am.

Loose another 20lbs by summer. The scales say I have lost the 4.5lb I gained over Christmas. Even though I have been really strict with what I eat and have upped my exercises I am skeptical but will know for sure tomorrow at weigh in. On the plus I had to go an buy a size smaller in my work pants. I like that

Pay off CC. This is definitely an ongoing thing nothing much to report still making monthly payments and working towards it

Quit smoking. A work in progress, work is easy but at home in the evening it is worse. I broke out in tears last night over something that was really not a big deal. One fag yesterday and one today, hopefully tomorrow will be zero.

House Proud. Nothing to show yet though I have been looking at some stuff to decorate our mantle piece as it seems bare now that all the Christmas decorations are down going to do some looking this weekend.

See More of England. Mr. Y in E and I are making a day trip this weekend to Walthams Abbey so Check

Blog. I have a theme chosen but need a book to start writing the posts. I checked one bookstore this morning but they did not have it. Will try to find it this weekend.

Over all not bad moving forward and that's the way we like it.